Sunday, May 24, 2009

Ain't No Sunshine

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone.
It's not warm when she's away.
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And she's always gone too long anytime she goes away.

Wonder this time where she's gone,
Wonder if she's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home anytime she goes away.

And I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know,
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know

Hey, I ought to leave the young thing alone,
But ain't no sunshine when she's gone, only darkness everyday.
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone,
And this house just ain't no home anytime she goes away.

Anytime she goes away.
Anytime she goes away.
Anytime she goes away.
Anytime she goes away.

Ain't No Sunshine.

Spaceman is sad and lonely in empty dark space.

**Can you find Capricorn in the first picture?

Saturday, May 16, 2009

My Interest for Extreme Movies

One of the things that most of you (my friends) don't know is that, I am actually into extreme Asian movies especially by the Japanese. Extreme as in most of the movies are banned from most parts of the world cause' it's too much for some people's taste and the threshold of their stomachs. Usually this kind of movie involves a lot of blood, mutilation, seckx, touches on issues that are taboo, full of suspense, artistic, weird, confusing, plenty of chills and full of shockness.

Why you ask me? I guess you can say every people interpret art in different ways. But that's just one of the reasons. I wanna see what are the results when the directors and producers have no boundaries when it comes to making movies. See what they can come out with. What would happen when you let your thoughts roam free and wild? Some of them are brilliant while some just plain sucks. One thing for sure, majority of them are very controversial for touching into very very sensitive issues testing the limits. You can simply describe them as beautifully sick.

I’ll give you a bad example about how sick some of the movies are. I haven’t watched this myself as people had reviewed the movie with low ratings. There’s one scene in the movie Naked Blood, a victim of a wrongfully conducted experiment poked out one of her own eyeballs with the fork, dipped it in some flour and then fried it. Wala! Bon Apetiti! Tempura eyeball is served. She ate it and it was truly orgasmic for her lol. (I found this movie clip from Youtube before so maybe you can try your luck if you want =P). Actually there are movies much worse than this like the Guinea Pig series, which are arguably the most gruesome films to ever come out from the country of the rising sun. It is said that these series are hard to find as they a rarity due to being banned in many countries.

I don't reveal this side of me much because I know that people gonna think I am sick and unusual for being that interested in gory, violence, snuffy and horror stuff. I remember clearly one time I showed my friends this movie called Ichi the Killer. Not even past 10 minutes, one friend couldn't stand it, got out from the room, another hide under the pillow, then another went, 'Ughh~ OMG, Chai you are sick!' and some suggested "jokingly" not to get near me ever again LOL.

I am no sadistic, but sometimes I do get a lil' bit pleasure from other people's as in when I see a friend falling down from the bicycle, crotch got hit or getting slap from a girl I would LMAO. But hey, I not that bad okay, that's just being playfully mischievous. I am not a Super 'S' like Hama-chan lol.

I am not alone however as there are a lot of fans for this genre. ONLY hardcore fans. I admit that before getting into this kind of movies, I was very scared of watching horror movies (for a guy! if you wanna add). Like when I was a kid, after watching The Exorcist, I had trouble sleeping the next few days. But now, I have overcome this part of fear pretty much. They are nothing compared to the extreme ones I had watched. So it's some kind of a training for me haha.

Memorable Asian Extreme movies watched so far are: Battle Royale, Ichi the Killer, Oldboy, The Bow, Ju-on, The Ring, A Snake of June, Strange Circus, Sympathy for Mr Vengence, A Tale of Two Sisters, Zatoichi, Three Extremes, Casshern, One Missed Call, Wild Zero, Visitor Q, Infection, Dark Water and others which I forgot the name titles. I'm so sad that most stuff in Crunchyroll have been restricted.

** Photos courtesy of Snowblood Apple (One of my favorite websites for extreme movie reviews). Be advised that the imagery in the films can be quite graphic and unsuitable for minors and NSFW (Not Safe For Work).

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

The Cello

Oh man, I got totally hooked up with classical music these days. Particularly with the instrument cello. At first impression, sorry to say, I was not able to feel or realize the true beauty of the instrument. From the appearance, it looks too big and bulky for my preference. Then for the sound, I don't know how to describe it but it was just not my kind of taste.

I think I suddenly got this kind of mood when searching for the meanings of glamor and elegance, I found that both the two words have a deep correlation with anything that is classic for example, the Victorian style (at least that is what I think). I am becoming a fan of that style. Then one way and another it leads to classical music for reason I don't know lol. I guess I was looking for some inspirations for my work.

Besides that, one day I was found updates on Robert Downey Jr in Yahoo! about his recent movie venture. He and Jamie Foxx acted in a movie called The Soloist. I've watched the trailers of the movie and reviews from the public. This movie looks good with the storyline aside from the performance of the two main actors. I can't wait to watch it! It's a beautiful and touching movie about the life of Nathaniel Ayers, a music prodigee who is schizophrenic and lives in the street playing the violin and cello. It's also about an unlikely and a moving friendship about the two people who had enriched each others life tremendously. From this movie, my interest towards the cello is starting to build up.

Then when I think back, I remember about one of my favorite artistic horror movies, Strange Circus where the cello is one of the important elements in it. Man I tell you it's creepy and mysterious. It's almost like there's something alive about the cello case. Boy, it was one heck of a surprise at the end of the movie. I know you don't know what am I talking about lol. Ehemm anyway...

I am most impressed when I heard this dude, Mstislav Rostropovich plays the cello. Many including some of his peers had said he's the best cellist of the 20th century. No joke, listening to 'Prelude from Bach's Cello Suite No. 1' played by him sent chills up my spine unlike other cellists. The way he plays the cello is truely beautiful and you can totally feel the kind of message and emotion he expresses through the song.

These days I started listening back to Malice Mizer, a Japanese band which I have a lot of love for. They one of the best visual kei band that ever lived other than X Japan and L'arc-en-Ciel. Everything about them is unique, their clothes, style of music and the way they carry themselves in the music scenes. The band's music and themes were characterized by their strong French and classical influences, later moving away from deliberate French romanticism and incorporating Gothic-Victorian aspects. You guys would probably think I'm weird for favoring this band, but I don't care as I am one of their many fans and the Visual Ks.


Along the street that had always echoed with our footsteps
The whithered trees fading away down the road
Perceived the distance between the steps increase

The small falling leaves passing by my shoulders once more returned to the sky
And then I somehow loved even the violents wind
Gently I was smiling

Your familiar form leaning on the windowsill
Flickers among the hazy sunlight and disappears
A whispered phrase in my crowded memories says
"If only until I awake from this dream..."

Just a while more
I want to fall asleep holding you
Even if only in this time changed by gentle memories
I want to fall asleep with you in my arms
Like we were when we first met

You lean against the windowsill and it rustles
And I hear the softly murmered phrase once more...
Even though I can't see your form like then
At least amidst this dream

Just a while more
I want to fall asleep holding you
Even if only in this time changed by gentle memories
I want to fall asleep with you in my arms
Just like we were
That day we first met

I want to fall asleep holding you
I want to fall asleep with you in my arms

Lol, actually Malice Mizer has nothing to do with cello, I just want you to know about one of my favorite Japanese bands. However, Mana who is one of the co-founder of that band is producing solo vocalist and cellist Kanon Wakeshima. Kanon really look like a doll in a haunting (with her gothic-victorian style) and adorable way. She's very talented and kawaii~!. The first I have ever seen anyone who sings while performing with a cello. She's cool.


Kanon Wakeshima

Check out Kanon Wakeshima's music video, Still Doll. It's a nice song :D


Hi Miss Alice
With your glass eyes
What kind of dream
Can you see?
Are you fascinated with?

My heart tears
And drifts
Stuck in the patched crevices
Are memories

Hi Miss Alice
With that fruitful lips
To whom does love
Is cast away?
Is lamented?

I spin my words
Feverish tongue
Has turned cold
The song to love
Can't be sung either

Still you do not answer

All these experiences and discoveries made my heart to start embracing the cello more and more.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Doodle on the Dinding

I've been sleeping in the same room for the past. My bedroom. It is dull and messy but it has two of things that are most important to me at home which are the bed and the computer. Yeah, you can say those two are all I need haha. However I think it's time for a makeover especially the walls. I'm thinking of repainting it but I guess I'll leave it for some other time after planning.

I don't really like sleeping with an empty head. Usually I would lay on the bed and read comic books before I doze off. But sometimes you get so tired that you don't have the mood to read anything so your head becomes empty and soon you'll start thinking about stuffs that you don't wanna think about lol.

So, I thought about doing graffiti of my favorite characters and brands on the walls which will include Gloomy, Devilrobots, Tofu, Touma, Bape, Astroboy, Murakami, Tokidoki, Pete Fowler and others. Them are all inspiration to me to embrace my creative side. This will act as reminder to myself to fight for my real life dreams.

The first day I started of full of motivation. I expected my mom to nag about it and damn I was right about. My mom is the master of our home. She likes everything clean. Once she saw the sketches on one side of my wall, I got one heck of a scolding. Not to mention, that was kinda discouraging to me. Luckily as time goes by, she seems to be cool about it and don't really mind much. But that is always the case with her I know lol.

One side of the wall.

Day 1

Day 20++

Yes I know what you are thinking. You must be wondering why there's so little progress after day one. Well that's because I kinda slack off and as mentioned just now my mom demotivated me lol. Anyway, I got my mood back so hopefully we'll see some more progress in the future.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Are you a stand-in boyfriend?

Argh~ Where is my blogging mood? I don't know, maybe it has been lost ever since the time I got hangover from the night-out at Thai Bar. I wonder if the effect can last that long. Who knows, I've been acting crazy these days and my appetite reached the level where my stomach feels as big as the universe haha. You know, like I ate two plates of steaks and I still got room for more OMG. If not, then probably my mind is concentrating on something else which is a secret right now hehe. Anyway, I still got some things in the store which I haven't really got the time and mood to post up. We'll see.

Here's an interesting topic I found on Lifestyle MSN especially for guys. I would like to share this with you in case you miss it. This should open your eyes bigger and see things clearer. I know some of the guys including myself have been through the same if not the similiar kind of situation.

He’s a stand-in boyfriend.

He's tired of being the shoulder for women to cry on. Should he hold out for something better or give one of these ladies another chance?

By Lynn Harris

Dear Lynn,
I’m in my mid-20s and definitely ready for a serious relationship but I’m not sure if the women I’m drawn to right now can offer me that. With girl #1, things didn’t work out because she seemed to thrive only on drama and the attention I gave her when she was upset about something. She had no idea how draining this was, and she didn’t reciprocate. Basically, I tried to help, and I got burned.

I recently crossed paths with a high-school crush (girl #2) who is hanging onto a particularly lousy ex. I tried to put aside my crush — which she’s aware of — and become the guy whose shoulder she cries on. I even agreed to deliver a late-night hug anytime she can’t sleep, but I decline her invitations to sleep on her couch; she knows I will not take advantage of her. It’s hard, but I’ve adjusted to being lonely.

But now girl #1 is back in the picture, apologizing, and BOTH of them are giving me mixed signals. I’m excited, but also timid: I don’t want to be just a backup parachute for either of them, and now I’m the one hesitating to jump. Can you give me some perspective?
– Mr. Hug

Dear Mr. Hug,
You are kind, giving, attentive, sensitive, respectful, and compassionate. These are wonderful qualities. Do not change.

But when it comes to both of these girls, you need to dry off your shoulder and turn your back. Both of those women have done nothing but convince you that this lopsided exchange — where you serve in the thankless role as nothing but an errant knight armed with tissues — is your fate. You’re spending your evenings listening to a girl moan about her horrible ex rather than mooning over you. You’re waiting for her to give you a cue instead of searching for real love. Of COURSE you’re lonely! You don’t need to "adjust" to it. Instead, ask yourself why you’ve chosen to play this role rather than taking care of your own needs.

Yep, Mr. Hug, it’s time for you to step back and investigate for yourself why, as you say, you’re drawn to this kind of tragic martyr-drama. Give it some thought, and take this to heart: It is NOT the only option available to you. Just because you’re good at it doesn’t mean you can’t do better.

Only after some careful introspection on your part — and plenty of healing time on hers — should you consider trying to make a go of it with girl #2. (Girl #1 is not relationship material.) But don’t put all your expectations on girl #2: Get yourself and your wonderful qualities out there looking for someone strong and stable who appreciates compassion because she’s human, not because she sucks it out of the atmosphere around her. And honestly, Mr. Hug, I can’t wait for you to see what it feels like when a gal says to you, "Here, let me kiss it better."

Friday, May 1, 2009

Pigs Are Innocent

300,000 pigs are being slaughtered in Egypt! The Egyption government decreed that all the pigs in the country had to be slaughtered as a precaution against the spread swine flu; despite the fact that no cases virus have been reported there and it is spread by people, not pigs.

The swine flu virus originated in pigs, and has genes from human, bird and pig viruses. Scientists don't know exactly how it jumped to humans. In the current outbreak, WHO says the virus is being spread from human to human, not from contact with infected pigs.

In an effort to save the pigs, WHO (The World Health Organization) decided to stop using the term "swine flu" to avoid confusion over the danger posted by pigs. Instead of that, the organization will stick with the technical scientific name H1N1 influenza A. The term "swine flu" was misleading consumers and needlessly causing countries to ban pork products and order the slaughter of pigs.

In case you are wondering how come there are pigs in Egypt being a Muslim country, the farmers actually raise the pigs for consumption by the country's Christian minority. Besides that, many of the families that raise pigs in Egypt are members of the country's Christian minority.

Mr Sayed is pissed off.

The farmers depended on the pigs as a source of income but now the government had to take it away from them. The farmers receive no compensation and they even had to pay for the costs of the slaughtering of their pigs.

Oink! Oink! We're innocent!

P.S. Happy Labor Day